I Lose Myself

I lose myself

I don’t know why I lose myself
In worldly desire
Yes lose
Because there is no winning in sin
Yet I lose myself in
The bliss of a moment’s pleasure

A sacrifice I slowly make
Giving up what’s mine for the taking
Yet I lose myself
Am I just faking?


Am I a hypocritical internet scholar?
Who preaches to the masses yet cannot follow
Himself or his ego that rebels inside
I lose myself to these feelings inside

And until I pray to change the conditions of this heart of mine
The evil one will rule this temple until I die.